How I found out about panic attacks.....

Let me start off by saying that I didn't know I had a panic disorder,  I just thought I was a bitch and that's the way it was always going to be for me. I grew up knowing that I wasn't liked. It wasn't until I was in my mid 20's that I had my first panic attack. I thought I was dying. It hurt so bad!  My chest was tight, I couldn't breathe, I was shaking uncontrollably, and the sweat was pouring off me. I thought I was dying.....I was in the hospital thank god, and they hooked me up to an EKG machine and watched my heart beat. 

It was normal.

 I was in the hospital because I broke my leg, my boss had just came in and told me that she was going to have to let me go because they couldn't afford to pay my insurance if I wasn't going to be at work.  When she left I had my first, of many, panic attacks.  

This is what I was now dealing with on a weekly basis...my then doctor said that it would most likely go away and that these are brought on by moments of panic.  Boy was he wrong. These "moments of panic" continue still today.  They don't hurt or scare me any less today than they did yesterday and at times they are so bad I go back to the hospital thinking I am dying again...

I don't try to hide the fact that this happens to me. I am very open with my job, family, friends, and co-workers about what all is wrong with me, and for the most part they are understanding and accepting. Have I been passed up for opportunities because of it, sure, but can I change that others are not comfortable about it, nope and I'm ok with that, for the most part...

I read somewhere that people that have one of these many personality disorders have several of them. I have 3.  I have anxiety, severe panic disorder, and OCD. It took me a long time to find a medicine that worked for all three.  

Please if you think you have a mental health problem seek help because it will only get worse and you will want to try to stop it before then.

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